Mera Kajal – Sabika Abbas Naqvi

Mera Kajal
Sabika Abbas Naqvi

 

Tumhe laga meri aankhon ka kajal
sirf shringaar hai,
jisse tum filmy gaane likhogey.
Tumhe laga meri aankhon ka kajal tumhari capitalist aur misogynist
makeup brands ki dukaano mein bikti hui sirf ek mehngi dibiya hai.
Tumhe laga meri aankhon ka kajal mere mrignayno ko,
tumhare unrealistic husn k paymano ko match krne k qaabil banata hai?

 

Nahin,
Ye kajal tumhari soch se parey hai.
Ye woh siyah roshnayi hai jisko apni
beshrami k qalam mein daalkr
likhi hain humne inquilab ki tareekhein.
Meri aankhon mein lage kajal ki lakeerein wo hain
jisse maine tumhari afsosnaak nazakat k wehem
ko god diya hai.
Issey kuchh inquilaabi kavitayein likhi hain,
tumhari oppression ki eenton se bani deewaron pr mazedaar memes bhi banaye hain.
Ye woh kajal hai jiski chheton se
maine tumhari mazhabi shariyat k dastawezon pr
dhabbe laga diye hain.
Iss kajal ki salayi se
maine sabhya muaashrey ki warakh pr
likhein hain apni gunahgari k qisse.

 

Mere iss kajal ki dibbi ko kabhi khol k dekho,
ismein bharii hai
meri ashiqui ki dhun,
meri kitabon ka aks,
mere ilm ki ek badi hoti boond.
Ismein kaan lagakr suno, toh sunayi degi
ruuh tak,
mere falsafon ki goonj
meri ashiqui ki dastak,
ek toofaan ki ahat,
uthti lehron ki sarsarahat,
meri mabasharat ki phusphusahat.

 

Aur suno, iss kajal pr kisi ki monopoly mat dhoondhna
ye maujood hai kayi aankhon mein,
raaton ko ishq mein dubone wali aurat k paas bhi iski ek dibbi hai.
Uss randi, jiske badan pr tumne khud ko seka hai,
usne bhi apne blouse mein iski ek dibbi rakhi hui hai.
I also have put this kajal, loud and dark, under my burqa.

 

Iss dibbi mein apni mardparsti ki khurpi daalo,
aur khodtey jaao;
lekin tum iski anant teh tk pohoch na paaogey.
Tum jo binaries mein jeetey ho,
mere kajal k satrangi rang
ko samajh na paogey.
Jab mein royi toh ashq k saath,
gaalo pr phail gaya tha.
Guzri raat ki nishani hai kajal,
hmari gunahgaar, awarri kahaani hai kajal,
iraani hai kajal, turaani hai kajal,
hinjra bhi hai, aur zanani bhi kajal.
Mere muqaddar ki garani hai kajal
ladai ki mere zabani hai kajal.

 

Mera kajal meri zehen ki chingari se jale,
tumhare bade bade fatwo aur paymano ki raakh se bana hai.
Mera kajal woh mundair hai jispr haatho ko tek kr
tum meri aankhon k kunwein mein jhaak saktey ho,
jisko abtk sirf jheel smajhtey they
uss samandar k apaar paani mein nahaa sakte ho.
Himmat kr lo,
koshish kr lo,
mita na sakogey mita na sakogey,
ye aankhon ka kajal,
ye khwabon ka kajal,
ye surmayi subah ki asha ka kajal,
ye ashiq ka kajal,
ye mushriq ka kajal,
ye imaan waale kaafir ka kajal.

 

Na jaane kitni garaan raatein guzar gayi,
magar ye kajal maujood hai,
meri aankhon mein abhi bhi,
gawahi dene k liye.
K ise kitni jehd se piroya hai,
mere dadda ke kaanpte haathon ne,
amma ke chalte qalam ne,
Coretta Scott ne, Surayya Tarzi ki be-hijaab taqreeron ne, Manabi Bandyopadhyay ki payal ne,
Ayaan Hirsi Ali k badan k zakhmo ne, Savitri ki sari ne – Fatima ki kitabon ne,
aur un hazaroon, laakhon,
aurton ne,
jinke josh ki hararat maujood hai ismein,
teri nazron mein bs rhi mere ishq ki aahat maujood hai ismein.
Ye kajal
jab mitega,
ya mitaya jayega,
toh muashrey ki aankhon mein kabhi na mitne waala nishaan chhod jaayega.
Mera kajal,
siyaah kajal,
beimaan kajal,
gustakh kajal,
seditious kajal.

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